{"id":592,"date":"2024-12-02T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2024-12-02T01:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.xn--advnx-ira.de\/wp\/?p=592"},"modified":"2024-12-02T02:48:31","modified_gmt":"2024-12-02T02:48:31","slug":"2-dezember-was-ist-da","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.xn--advnx-ira.de\/wp\/?p=592","title":{"rendered":"2. Dezember &#8211; WAS IST DA???"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wenn<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Dann<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kann<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">K\u00f6nnte<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wollte<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">W\u00f6llte<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">M\u00fcsste<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sollte<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Alles<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Anders<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sein<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fuck<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ich bin falsch<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Auf dem falschen Weg<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eingeschlafen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Festgefroren.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Zur Salzs\u00e4ule erstarrt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Der Zug f\u00e4hrt an mir vorbei<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Aber ich sitze nicht drinnen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">bin nicht eingestiegen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">wurde nicht reingebeten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Warum h\u00e4lt er nicht an?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Warum bittet mich niemand rein?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Warum lassen mich alle im Regen stehen?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wer zum Geier schaut denn mal nach MIR?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">richtig. niemand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ert\u00f6nt eine verbitterte Stimme tief in mir drinnen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Also muss ich k\u00e4mpfen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ums \u00fcberleben.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00fcr Ver\u00e4nderung.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00fcr Verbesserung.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00fcr meine Ideale.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00fcr mich!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Idealismus<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">bringt mich zu Fall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich renne<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich \u00e4chtze<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich lechze <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich sehne<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich verzehre <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">mich<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">nach&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ja nach was eigentlich? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">nach Erfolg? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Erfolg in was? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nach dem Gef\u00fchl was geleistet zu haben.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eine Heldin zu sein.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Etwas besonderes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Geliebt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mein Verm\u00e4chtnis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ist das falsch?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hege ich einen solchen Bedeutungsdrang?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Warum kann ich nicht akzeptieren, das eigentlich alles im Leben unbedeutend ist?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Verglichen mit dem Universum&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Warum bin ich so egozentrisch <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">zu denken<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ich h\u00e4tte Bedeutung<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Einfluss<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Macht<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kontrolle<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">einen Sinn<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und dann stellt sich mir die Frage:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Was glaubst du eigentlich?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">WAS GLAUBST DU EIGENTLICH<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">???<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Alle Glaubenss\u00e4tze abgeschafft<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">zumindest alle die du finden konntest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Alles rausgestrichen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">radiert<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">mit schwarz \u00fcbermalt<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und dann doch die Seite zerissen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">zerkn\u00fcllt<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">in den Papierkorb geworfen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">den Papierkorb aus dem Fenster geschmissen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">wieder eingesammelt <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und ordnungsgem\u00e4\u00df zum Wertstoffhof gebracht.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8222;Pr\u00fcfet alles und das Gute behaltet&#8220;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Aber<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Was ist das Gute?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Was kam neu entdeckt dazu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Was ist da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">WAS<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">IST<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">DA<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nichts?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wie gelange ich zu solch einer hohen Erkenntnis?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ist es wiederum anma\u00dfend dies anzustreben?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wenn am Ende der Suche im Schlimmsten Fall NICHTS auf mich wartet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nichts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Aber doch!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Irgendwas ist immer!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Andernfalls w\u00e4re mein Bewusstsein doch tot?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Irgendwas treibt mich doch an,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">in Bewegung zu bleiben,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">obwohl Stillstand so einfach ist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nach Idealen zu lechzen,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">obwohl Idealisten haufenweise an sich selbst zerbrechen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nach MEINEM Sinn zu suchen,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">obwohl mir tausend Pl\u00e4tze offen stehen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wo geh\u00f6re ich hin?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wenn das mit der Zufriedenheit doch so einfach w\u00e4re.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und f\u00fcr mich<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">nicht der Inbegriff vom Aufgeben meiner Ideale bedeuten w\u00fcrde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Von dem Verrat an den M\u00f6glichkeiten<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">gleichzusetzen mit Stagnation und Stillstand<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und vor allem der Raub meiner Sinnhaftigkeit. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Meines <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Geltungsdrang?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eine Folie ist niemals schwarz \/ wei\u00df.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Man kann auf mehr als einer Seite vom Esel fallen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Niemand wei\u00df wo sich die Grube befindet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eine Fensterscheibe kullert den Hang hinab.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ein Zombie greift Barack Obama an&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">und mein Kopf gibt auf bei zu gro\u00dfen Fragen,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">dessen Antwort mich zu stark definieren w\u00fcrde,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">an einem Ort der kompletten NICHT-IDENTIFIKATION mit irgendwas!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wir drehen uns im Kreis<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">wieder und wieder<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sarah Kane! &#8211; denke ich<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">h\u00e4ttest du mal die Antworten gefunden auf Fragen, die du nie h\u00e4ttest stellen sollen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vielleicht kommen Antworten<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ohne Fragen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vielleicht kommt Bewegung<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ohne Gas zu geben<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vielleicht kommt es alles so<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">wie es soll<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">wenn ICH nicht im Weg stehe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p 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